I think the dread of the future is exacerbating your depression. The worry about how you will cope, money wise.can manage on my own sure. Financially though it's precarious. Selling the house and splitting the balance after paying off the bank will leave me in an awful situation. I buy a lottery ticket on the off chance. You're lucky you have daily chats with people.
Without going into further detail,vi think my need for sex is lower than yours. I certainly wouldn't dismiss a woman, if the sex was missing.. and it's not just my age. I was like that before. A good listener is the key to me. Feeling listened to . Empathy women I love.