What are you thinking right now?

[Zackarydoo]

I'm thinking about how I'm ever going to snap out of it.

 

[cheaptrickfan]

I have decided, self-indulgent bitch that I am, that I need some brownies. South Beach Diet be damned, this is a time that calls for a large quantity of exceptional chocolate goodness. So... *off to bake*

 

[mintymint]

Sounds cozy. Mine is flannel with little pockets that are sewn shut.

lol! You rock the flannel CTF

 

[cheaptrickfan]

lol! You rock the flannel CTF

I do. I never claimed to be stylish.

So anyway, I'm in the kitchen scraping a chocolate mixture from the double boiler into a bowl when Kid #1 comes bounding into the kitchen, stops and sniffs and then says, "OMG... is that chocolate? Are those... YOUR BROWNIES?!"


So, I made someone's day today. Finally. It was getting late and I was getting worried.

 

[shells]

I don't care anymore.

 

[cheaptrickfan]

I am shaky. And cold. And it feels like I am trying to draw sludge through my lungs.

 

[loketron]

*hands CT a blankey* dont be cold.
im wondering why CT has respiratory problems?

 

[evanescencefan91]

cheaptrick makes bloody brilliant brownies

 

[shells]

I am shaky. And cold. And it feels like I am trying to draw sludge through my lungs.

I hope you feel better

 

[cheaptrickfan]

*hands CT a blankey* dont be cold.
im wondering why CT has respiratory problems?

Just feeling down.

cheaptrick makes bloody brilliant brownies

I'm glad you liked them. Everyone deserves a care package. xoxo

I hope you feel better

Thanks. I'm sure I'll bounce back.

 

[dreamer8]

I'm better...for now. Feels good.

 

[wheels]

"Same ****, different pile."

 

[loketron]

i just found the matrix revolutions on amazon.com for $0.01!! awesome!

 

[evanescencefan91]

i wonder if i can dance this funk out of me, and i think maybe my legs getting a bit better since i can dance like an epileptic

haha dance like an Egyptian/ dance like an epileptic, cuz it looks like i'm having a seizure when i dance, no intention to make fun of people with seizures

I've felt like this before I'm sure so i shouldn't be dying unless the homework really does have it in for
me

D;

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man life without seraquell is like life without my security blanket

I have to focus to not freak out about everything and I have homework and studying to do

 

[Just_Some_Dude]

about just how bad i probably ****** up

story of my life

 

[cheaptrickfan]

How it sucks when I wake up and everything's alright, but then after a split-second of irrational and pointless happiness, it all comes crashing back down onto me and I remember. And then it hurts. And I can't breathe for a second. And then I realize I have a ****-ton of breaths left to take and for a while they're all going to hurt.

You'd think that by my age I'd ******* know better. Apparently I am just that stupid though.

And anyway, I had my time in the sun, right? I was married and had a family at one point. So what if that "time in the sun" feels as though it were just a fake-n-bake session at a NJ seaside salon. The illusion of happiness does not take away the sting of bitterness.

Maybe I should just accept my inevitable decline into dust. Ok, so slightly bitchy dust. Slightly bitchy, lonely dust.

omg I was never this emo when I was a teenager. What.. the. ****?!

In other cheerful news: my ex is so tortured over some aspect of his relationship with the HRH (that's Home-wRecking-wHore for the rest of you) that he let it slip the other day that he is in therapy. ******* what? The guy admitted that he didn't take our marriage counseling seriously, but just wanted it to look as though he was trying before demanding a divorce. But for a home-wrecking whore he makes an effort?

I don't even rate the effort one puts out for an unprincipled whore. You can't say that's not a blow to the self-esteem.

What's worse is that I can't even indulge some good old-fashioned Schadenfreude and be happy at his misery. I really, really want to though, and I know that makes me a bad person, but OMG I would love it if karma finally kicked him in the balls.


So yeah, I awoke to a great big bucket of awesome this morning. Bring it on, Life.

 

[evanescencefan91]

*hugs cheaptrick*

take whatever happiness you can

I'm feeling better I remembered the other time when i felt almost completely blank like yesterday it was that day in november before i had my huge panic attack,

i wonder if I can ever completely get off seraquell, but once a week is still better than once a day i hope i can consider it progress



if i didn't have homework maybe i could take the time to deal with these

they take my time and my confidence, well if i can figure the signs of an onset of one, i hope i can find a way to better way to prevent them

the last day of spring break will be spent doing a heinous essay and studying



i finished a reading and a short write up last night

quiz is tommorow essay is due on tuesday i think

*sighs*

i dreampt i had to retake highscool chem last night

well at least I'm done with that crap

less than 2 months of my freshman year
wow

 

[Spare]

I spend entirely too much time here.

 

[evanescencefan91]

haha preaching to the choir spare

now I am getting sources on my sources rhetoric f*cking sucks

 

[evanescencefan91]

I envy the dead for they write no essays



do not pity the dead harry, pity the living but most of all pity those who live writing essays D;

and anonymouse's avitar is waayyy tripy :O