What are you thinking right now?

[evanescencefan91]

I'm messed

D;

 

[Broken_Doll]

I'm thinking about my boyfriend.
I'm thinking about May and getting on a train.
I'm thinking about tomorrow.
I'm thinking about running away from home.
I'm thinking this weed I'm smoking tastes foul.
I want another cigarette.

 

[Drama]

I'm thinking about the poor little cat outside :/

 

[mintymint]

I don't want to say the "pn-word" lest I jinx myself

Pneumatic!?


Feel better soon

 

[Haz]

this wine is getting to me a little

hoping a friend of mine wants to hang out tonight it would be really good to see her, i'll probably just sit here and listen to music though

 

[cheaptrickfan]

Update: Again, the verdict is just "really bad bronchitis," wit no pneumonia rales sounds, so good. They gave me prednisone to open up the airways so maybe I'll get some oxygen going to my brain again. it was a nice little vacation from oxygenated blood, but really, O2 is better.

Thanks for the well wishes.

Other than that I am thinking that I need more coffee beans - Ethiopian Yergacheffe to be exact.

 

[Orthochromatic]

Coolness, healthy is good.

I'm thinking "Grrrrrr... immigration protesters, why don't you drive your lazy butts to Arizona and protest there instead of downtown San Diego, where I wanted to go today"

(original thought was slightly edited to make it more suitable for mixed company and children)

 

[Just_Some_Dude]

I need more coffee beans - Ethiopian Yergacheffe to be exact.

sounds orgasmic

 

[SophiaGrace]

I need more coffee beans - Ethiopian Yergacheffe to be exact.

sounds orgasmic

I read this as organic but then realized...it wasnt the word organic

 

[cheaptrickfan]

I need more coffee beans - Ethiopian Yergacheffe to be exact.

sounds orgasmic

It is very, very good honeysuckle. Just a smell makes me tingle.

I need more coffee beans - Ethiopian Yergacheffe to be exact.

sounds orgasmic

I read this as organic but then realized...it wasnt the word organic

It really IS that good.

 

[Badjedidude]

I'm thinking "Grrrrrr... immigration protesters, why don't you drive your lazy butts to Arizona and protest there instead of downtown San Diego, where I wanted to go today"

(original thought was slightly edited to make it more suitable for mixed company and children)

This made me chuckle a bit.

 

[cheaptrickfan]

Time for a radical paradigm shift. I've got to stop with the passivity and fear even though those are comfortable "knowns."

Maybe this will help me let go of the hate... gradually. I can't expect miracles, now, can I? And even then, if hate motivates me to move forward, is it really that bad?

No, don't answer that. It does bother me that hating that ******* has become a large part of my days, but again, it is so ingrained in me that it has become like a security blanket. If I let go of that hate, there's going to be a huge empty void there and I'm going to have to fill it with something. Fear is the emotion that rushes in the quickest. I can't bear the thought of allowing MORE fear in.

And I know I should "be positive" and all that honeysuckle, but it's difficult when everything seems fairly hopeless, hence my need for a paradigm shift. I have to find something positive in this stew of sewage.

Maybe I'll start a Daily Affirmations Thread here.

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"Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain."

 

[Just_Some_Dude]

Time for a radical paradigm shift. I've got to stop with the passivity and fear even though those are comfortable "knowns."

Maybe this will help me let go of the hate... gradually. I can't expect miracles, now, can I? And even then, if hate motivates me to move forward, is it really that bad?

No, don't answer that. It does bother me that hating that ******* has become a large part of my days, but again, it is so ingrained in me that it has become like a security blanket. If I let go of that hate, there's going to be a huge empty void there and I'm going to have to fill it with something. Fear is the emotion that rushes in the quickest. I can't bear the thought of allowing MORE fear in.

And I know I should "be positive" and all that honeysuckle, but it's difficult when everything seems fairly hopeless, hence my need for a paradigm shift. I have to find something positive in this stew of sewage.

Maybe I'll start a Daily Affirmations Thread here.

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"Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain."

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maybe you just need someone to periodically remind you of how capable you are? i find this helps...

 

[cheaptrickfan]

maybe you just need someone to periodically remind you of how capable you are? i find this helps...

Yes, this might help as long as this person isn't full of honeysuckle.

 

[evanescencefan91]

*hugs cheaptrick*

Paradigm shift!!

you just made a FFXIII reference did you know that?

 

[Broken_Doll]

I'm thinking about yesterday evening and last night, I had a lot of fun. A very old friend from college got my number from somebody and invited me to a house party. Spent the day feeling hungover and sore but had a good time, it was great to see him again and catch up with people.

I don't feel guilty about cheating on my boyfriend last night, I thought I would but I don't. I didn't cheat on him out of spite or to try and hurt him like he hurt me, or because he cheated on me, I did it because I wanted to, and I enjoyed it. I've never cheated on my boyfriend or any of my ex partners before.

I'm thinking about my boyfriend, I do still love him...

For the first time in a long time, I regret something, or rather, not doing something...

 

[cheaptrickfan]

*hugs cheaptrick*

Paradigm shift!!

you just made a FFXIII reference did you know that?

Sweetie, I don't even know WTF FFXIII is!

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I just took the longest, hottest shower. Way better than any bubble bath could ever be.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

And I know I should "be positive" and all that honeysuckle, but it's difficult when everything seems fairly hopeless, hence my need for a paradigm shift. I have to find something positive in this stew of sewage.

Maybe I'll start a Daily Affirmations Thread here.

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"Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain."

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Been going through the same sort of thing myself CTF.
At the sametime I came across some audio program files.
Maybe i was ready for the informations. I was diffinately really for changes....good, positive, loving changes..

I'm just done with the way my life is. How I'm living my life.
I gave it my best. I tried to make it right, but it was never good enough.
I also relized..I could never be that man in her mind of what she wanted me to be...Whatever it is in her mind.
I also relized she could never love me as I AM. I don't balme her nor blame myself...not anymore.
I'm done with all that honeysuckle. And I refuse to carry all the hatred, guilt and shame to my grave.
I still love her very much....but life gose on. The river of life keeps flowing with or without me. Life gose on with or without me.
I must live and go on. However I chose to live in peace and happiness today. It's my chioce. It was also my chioce that I chose to love her.
And I know it's ultimately my chioce to let go of her and whatever the fresia else is holding me back.

hahahaa...I have my own ways of giving women the honeysuckle test too.
Never thought these words would come out of my mouth "someday she'll see the lights"...
She used to say that to me all the time. hahahaaa
How life had changed...
Maybe it's becuase I've changed or a combination of both.

Yeah...dance in the raIN. fresia it...I'm chosing to dancing in the raIn
todaY.
While Jenni's death may had devistated me. On the flipe side of that was a very hard pill to swallow..
Life is too fucken short. She was young, beatiful, intelligent,sucessful with everything going for her..So much to live for. With so much love to give to the world.
There's no more rights and there's no more wrong..becuase everything seem all wronged after that.

And i have to live, go on and accept that.
As long as there's breath in me. I chiocing to live happily..inspite of it all,
becuase i might not make it to 2012
So I'm naking a chioce to BE HAPPY NOW, inspite of it all.


While some of the concepts and principles wasn't new to
me...some of it was. Some of it was totally in reverse how to used
to view life or preceive life.

It has a section in there about affirminations and how our mind
works

It's really kind of wierd in a way though becuase it's also based off
of some principles of favorite child's book.
Johnathen Livingston Seagull.

I've been listening to it for a couple of weeks now.
And I've notice the changes in me...my attitudes, my perceptions.

I've been listining to ultimate confidence by Dr. Robert Anthony
for the pass 6 months...It helped me alot. It helped even up
until recently. I was able to walk through that without trippin
out too hard.

Now I'm listening to Beyound positive thinking..
It's also work by Dr. Robert Anthony.
I like it alot. A lot of that stuff makes sense to me.
Plus it's giving me especifics intructions how to get results...
I have reasons...many of them.
Now I want results. fresia it..I deserve good positive results.
I'm dancing in rain or no rain....I don't care anymore...for a lack of a better word.
Whatever makes me happy...that's what I'm going to do.
Beside...I already know I'm happiness. I was borned with it.
I already know I'm love...that's who I AM.
It comes out of me. Just like music...Music comes out of me.
I created my music...in anyway I chose to.
And I'm capiable of creating loving beautiful music.
Well....now I'm going to creat my life the same way I creat my music...
anyway i want too.
I have this power...I've always had and screw whom ever tells me that I can't or don't have it in me.

I'm practicing some of the suggestions in there.
I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Final Fantacy 13...Silly.

 

[evanescencefan91]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Final_fantasy_XIII

hot chicks and chocobos! fresia ya!!

now I'll expect an avid presentation about all 13 including plot lines, themes character development and battle systems as well as presentations on spin offs such as FFX-2 and FFVII DOC, Advent children and crisis core. And an essay about the history of the company and how the franchise got the name, it's an interesting story, 20 pts to whomever can answer that

*hugs cheaptrick and crow*



I really appreciate what your saying crow,
i donno i hope i learn to let go of some of that bad honeysuckle, honestly crow your so wise, your like the budah or ghandi of a lonely life



and man Alanis Morset is really good

*dances*

 

[Depressedology]

i wish something happen to stop the world from revolving