I'm thinking about the long letter I e-mailed to my boyfriend, I'm glad I clicked 'Send'.
He e-mailed me back a letter telling me how much he loved me, that my letter made him smile.
I'm not sure if I'll ever tell him that I cheated on him too, I don't think he'd be too angry or hurt, after all he was encouraging such behaviour, but still, it would probably only give us something else to fight about...
We have nothing left to fight about, we are now on more even footing and now we're both really, really trying to make this work and trying not to drag up the past because it can't be changed and it does us no good.
We think that things can slowly start getting better now.
I'm thinking about rolling another joint.