I'm thinking about my experience from moments ago and how it makes me realize just how DEAD I've been for so many years. If you live in a big city... no, **** it... wherever you live, just please get out of your house. Go places. Do things. FORCE yourself to talk to people and TRY hard to make friends. Yes, home is comfortable. Home is where you can be yourself 100% without fear. But too much home, like too much anything, is not healthy. If you're not making good money, FIND a path that will take you there so that you can travel and see the world, or do whatever you wanna do. Money really can make a huge difference. I've never been crazy about it, but I understand now better than ever that my life could be soooo much better if I had strong resources.
Right now I'm thinking I just want to ask this woman to come with me, take her around the world, and we just do whatever the hell we want. That is unrealistic at this point, but not out of the realm of possibility. I just need to get off my ass and start believing that I can achieve again.