I feel so alone and sad, nobody to talk to, nobody that cares. I feel like crying but it's hard to. Feel so numb. Want someone to hold me in their arms and slowly sway me to and fro in a comforting manner. I feel so sad, alone, so lonely. I don't know why I'm here, I wish I could kill myself but I'm such a coward, I wish something or someone could kill me but even then, even if I die I think I'll still be miserable...maybe I'll be a miserable spirit forever tormented or maybe I'll reincarnate and start all this bullshit all over again...I can't ever win...I feel so meaningless in this world, I feel so lonely, nobody cares about my feelings or what I even have to say. I feel so lonely, so sad, I try to have a chat with my sister or mom but even they ignore me, they make ugly faces to show that they're not interested in what I have to say...and I feel like my boyfriend betrayed me, I don't trust him anymore...he's too busy to give a honeysuckle about my feelings anyway, I feel so lonely....don't have any motivation for anything, don't know what to do to waste my time, all I do is sleep my life away...*sigh*