MrLonely86
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I always see same (angelic) numbers on repeat. I think someone is trolling me in matrix. 
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TheSkaFish
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I'm kinda-sorta-not-quite-but-getting-there-over drinking.
I've had a bit this holiday season, and one thing I've noticed is that I don't feel as much of a buzz or a thrill from it anymore. Instead I just feel full, fat, tired, and unhealthy.
I don't know. I don't know if I will completely QUIT, but I know that the moods for it, are getting rarer for me.
And I'm OK with that.
I've had a bit this holiday season, and one thing I've noticed is that I don't feel as much of a buzz or a thrill from it anymore. Instead I just feel full, fat, tired, and unhealthy.
I don't know. I don't know if I will completely QUIT, but I know that the moods for it, are getting rarer for me.
And I'm OK with that.
Mate, I haven't had a single drink of alcohol in my entire life, and I'm infinitely proud of it.
MrLonely86
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The only German thing about me is Mettbrötchen.You are not a real German. XD / Sarcasm.
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ohh right. One day at a time works well
ahhhh look who is multi replying at last
See what
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That was a quick two weeks
TheSkaFish
Jedi Guardian
I think I ate and drank a week's worth of calories in a single night at the holiday party I went to yesterday.
Oh well, time to start walking it off.
Oh well, time to start walking it off.
TheSkaFish
Jedi Guardian
If anyone wants to talk to me about Trump, politics, etc you have like 2 days to do it.
I've done a lot of introspection about my life this year and I'm more inwardly focused than ever.
I'm really going to try to drop the political stuff this year, even with Trump going into office.
I don't really care about him anyway, he's just a "face" for people worse than him that are the ones actually doing the damage. Trump himself has no beliefs or value system apart from "whatever is good for Trump".
But my point is, I'm really going to try to just live my own life instead of worrying about politics or the economy.
Everyone that's done that, is happier and I would have been happier if I just did the same and wasn't so "anti".
But like I said I've done a lot of introspection and I figured out that I became "anti",
because I felt like I COULDN'T get good, and was constantly being blamed for it, for what I felt was bad luck,
so I felt like all I could do was hate the unjust game, and the sore winners, instead of get good myself.
That's what turned me off to the game, both thinking I couldn't get good enough to get anywhere at it, and also being faulted/blamed/insulted for not getting anywhere at it. Just like the old "stop hitting yourself, why are you hitting yourself" trick. The more I was faulted for not doing what I felt like I couldn't do, the more pissed off and turned off I became. It's taken me this long to realize, because I was feeling this way since kindergarten - long before I even knew what politics, the economy, Republicans or Democrats even were, or what different jobs were and why they paid differently, or what made one person cool and the other not, before I was attracted to women, all of it.
Just like in the past, as part of my New Year's Resolution I'm going to try to ignore Trump, Musk, Kanye, and the rest of the circus as much as possible. I still can't name a single thing most of them said, besides one comment from Trump about someone having "a lot of muscle" or something, which was actually objectively funny. So I'll let that one go.
I may not have been perfect this year, but I have done better than I have in past years and hope to do even better ignoring the attention-seekers this coming year.
I've done a lot of introspection about my life this year and I'm more inwardly focused than ever.
I'm really going to try to drop the political stuff this year, even with Trump going into office.
I don't really care about him anyway, he's just a "face" for people worse than him that are the ones actually doing the damage. Trump himself has no beliefs or value system apart from "whatever is good for Trump".
But my point is, I'm really going to try to just live my own life instead of worrying about politics or the economy.
Everyone that's done that, is happier and I would have been happier if I just did the same and wasn't so "anti".
But like I said I've done a lot of introspection and I figured out that I became "anti",
because I felt like I COULDN'T get good, and was constantly being blamed for it, for what I felt was bad luck,
so I felt like all I could do was hate the unjust game, and the sore winners, instead of get good myself.
That's what turned me off to the game, both thinking I couldn't get good enough to get anywhere at it, and also being faulted/blamed/insulted for not getting anywhere at it. Just like the old "stop hitting yourself, why are you hitting yourself" trick. The more I was faulted for not doing what I felt like I couldn't do, the more pissed off and turned off I became. It's taken me this long to realize, because I was feeling this way since kindergarten - long before I even knew what politics, the economy, Republicans or Democrats even were, or what different jobs were and why they paid differently, or what made one person cool and the other not, before I was attracted to women, all of it.
Just like in the past, as part of my New Year's Resolution I'm going to try to ignore Trump, Musk, Kanye, and the rest of the circus as much as possible. I still can't name a single thing most of them said, besides one comment from Trump about someone having "a lot of muscle" or something, which was actually objectively funny. So I'll let that one go.
I may not have been perfect this year, but I have done better than I have in past years and hope to do even better ignoring the attention-seekers this coming year.
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TheSkaFish
Jedi Guardian
The other day I heard Elon Musk was thinking about buying Hasbro - makers of Star Wars figures, Transformers, and even DnD books, among other things - a lot of my childhood, my teens, my personal history.
Get your stinking hands off my Hasbro, you cube-headed buffoon!
Get your stinking hands off my Hasbro, you cube-headed buffoon!
It’s too easy to look at the world that way, believe me, with over 20 years of policing, I know, but we have to allow ourselves to see the beauty of human beings too, the kindness, the selflessness, the charitable nature of so many people out there that don’t draw attention to themselves unlike their counterparts. I’m sure there are plenty of people in this very forum that don’t fit into the category that you allude to.
ardour
Well known loser
Got what he deserved. The US health system is run for and by criminals.
Absolutely, I know you're correct, and I honestly don't even want to give in to those feelings as easily. It doesn't make me feel good inside. It's just nasty energy I can feel coursing through me in those moments that doesn't serve me in any way. I suppose my New Year's resolution needs to be, to try and catch myself before I run away with my conditioned reactions.
Thank you for that response. That in itself was something I needed to hear today.
TheSkaFish
Jedi Guardian
Looks like we can look forward to another stupid arctic blast/polar vortex bullsh*t next month.
It will be fun being housebound for probably a week +.
Just like with heat domes, we seem to be getting more of these, and they seem to last longer, and be more intense.
So I guess that means I need to take advantage of today's relatively warm weather and get my run in while I can, even though I'm slightly ill.
It will be fun being housebound for probably a week +.
Just like with heat domes, we seem to be getting more of these, and they seem to last longer, and be more intense.
So I guess that means I need to take advantage of today's relatively warm weather and get my run in while I can, even though I'm slightly ill.
Anhedonia - so I’ve discovered there’s a word for it.
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