So I was looking for some thread the other day, and this thread showed up in the search list.
I read it again, and I was reminded of someone I fought with early in this thread, and I could feel the anger starting to come back.
Against my better judgment, I hate-searched his YouTube channel, which I already knew was full of insulting, immature/inane, and pervy/creepy content. Apparently it was not enough for him to be simply unpleasant, because he seems to have decided to up the ante to hate speech/racism/homophobia, and misogyny/hate against feminists, this coming from someone who called me an incel. How's that for irony. The channel is downright disgusting. And you best believe I flagged that s**t...hopefully it gets taken down soon.
Sure enough, he's also pro-Trump to the point of attending rallies, anti-vax, and anti-mask. Why am I not surprised.
I searched some more, and found that he openly admitted on another site that he likes to insult people and then block them. Someone else called his tactics "beyond cowardly". I enjoyed that. He seems to rub people the wrong way wherever he goes. Must be that "winning" personality.
There was also another funny thread a while ago on another site, where this guy who loves to tell others to "man up" and calls people "whiners", had a meltdown when no one jumped to answer his thread right away. He was mocked for several pages after that. It was great seeing him get what he deserves and being called out for the person he really is, but unfortunately that thread has been deleted.
But I just felt the anger boiling up inside. People like this are regressive. Intellectually and morally wrong. They would destroy all the progress we made after the Second World War, and want to take us back to the Gilded Age. They have this slave mindset that needs to have a hierarchy, where they're better than other people, and someone else is better than them, too - they need to have this, they're lost without it, and they want to force it on everyone else too. The common belief they seem to share, is that they are pro-cold world, pro-suffering. They want the world to stay hard. They want misery to remain in the world, instead of us evolving beyond it, out of some anachronistic belief in needing to be "tough", or in most cases, pretending to be. They want people they deem weak to suffer, so they can feel stronger, better than someone and in doing so, better about themselves, while kissing the asses of people higher up the hierarchy.
I started thinking, I hate this person. I hate people like him.
I hate what they think and believe. I hate everything they stand for.
I've been hated by, and hated right back, people like this all my life - from the rich kids who literally hated me just for existing, to this person and people like him. People who believe in the bully philosophy - might makes right, that life HAS to be Darwinian competition, that there IS and HAS to be a hierarchy and some people are inherently "better" than others.
I started understanding how the Civil War happened, because I don't see people like this as fellow Americans, I see them as enemies. I don't see them as people at all, but as some kind of infestation.
I started realizing that I was sounding like a Nazi, myself.
I started thinking, this is what people like this want. People like this want to provoke a reaction in others, they want to ruin your mood, they say hateful things, and that gets you to hate them, because a fight is what they want. Insulting people and getting in fights makes them feel good about themselves, because they are sorry people with sorry lives. They want to spread misery and bad feelings, because these people want attention, because their lives are meaningless and empty. They want to spread the same misery, bad feelings, and meaninglessness they feel themselves.
I started thinking, I know this kind of person, I know their mentality, I know their game. I know better.
And I also thought, if I'm going to claim the high road, that my way is the better way, then I can't do it by playing the same game, the hate game. As good as it would feel in the moment to get into a swear-fest with this kind of person, in the long run, it would feel bad, my mood would be ruined and I'd feel burnt out. I have to remember, spreading hate and getting attention is what they want, because they're immature. If I get into a swear-fest with them, that's exactly what they want me to do.
The characters in some of my favorite fictions, that I regard as good guys, they sometimes face truly depraved opponents. But they never sink to the level of hating them, tempting as it may be - they always stay true to the high road. I need to remember, take the high road, that I know better enough to take. Be above this, be the wiser person.