ThatOneGuy said:
Administrator's note: Due to the originality of the question it asks this thread falls under the criteria of "Essential" and hereby shall remain as a historical landmark of aLonelyLife.com in the form of a sticky. Thank You, ThatOneGuy!
4th of April 2008
- Robin
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Just type exactly what you are thinking right now. Exactly what you are thinking... don't hold back(except if it is explicit, against another member or the forum, etc.).
Just a thread to clear your thoughts with.
And.......................................................................... GO!
So, I just got back from dinner with friends; a lovely gay couple who like to entertain. Beautiful home, open hearts, grilled food, a little wine, a few games of UNO and a great variety of tunes...laughing, smiles, fun. The negative side of me is thinking, "why can't I enjoy the moment?"
Instead of fully enjoying myself, I am feeling sorry for myself...and consider tonight to be a waste of time. A WASTE! Why? Because I haven't gotten my life in such order (as my friends have). I have no one and there I am...sitting with some friends in suburbia...not meeting new, dynamic people (and by "people" I mean men) whom I could potentially connect with. Then I think...even if I were out, I'd consider it a waste of time...because of all the douche bags out there.
I am thinking my "time" has passed me by to meet someone with whom I can share my life with. At 35 years-old, I have nothing but a job and a home to show for the time I've spent on earth...no real love of my life, no children who could be that to me either. I am alone, and I don't see that changing any time soon.
It is harder than we think...just go out there and meet people. Ha! Yeah...meet people while they look over your shoulder trying to find something better.
In a nutshell, that's exactly what came to mind. Thanks for this thread...it was nice to free flow.