What are you thinking right now?

[Cavey]

Apparently, I'm invisible... oh well, I'm choosing to be happy regardless of this.

 

[Solivagant]

Apparently, I'm invisible... oh well, I'm choosing to be happy regardless of this.

^ I see you!

 

[Cavey]

Apparently, I'm invisible... oh well, I'm choosing to be happy regardless of this.

^ I see you!

You do? Pants! Pants! Where did I put my pants?!

OK, so I'm wearing pants already, but I have to amuse myself somehow

 

[Solivagant]

You do? Pants! Pants! Where did I put my pants?!

OK, so I'm wearing pants already, but I have to amuse myself somehow

Lol!

I haven't been around all that much lately. Last I remember, you were ill. Are you feeling better? Has your insomnia cleared up yet?

 

[Cavey]

Nope. My insomnia is a nightmare. It comes and it goes throughout the years, but right now it's in full effect. I get 2 or so hours of sleep a night and I spend most of that tossing and turning and repeatedly waking up.

Alma sent me some exercises to do and I'm going to give them a try and see if they help...

 

[Solivagant]

Nope. My insomnia is a nightmare. It comes and it goes throughout the years, but right now it's in full effect. I get 2 or so hours of sleep a night and I spend most of that tossing and turning and repeatedly waking up.

Alma sent me some exercises to do and I'm going to give them a try and see if they help...

I hope they do! I've spent long periods of time sleep-deprived, it is definitely no fun and very bad for your health. I'll be hoping the best for you!

 

[Lacrecia]

annoyed, headach-ed, hungry. Ugh i hope the day will get better.

 

[TheRealCallie]

I just want to stay sitting here in the peace and quiet, drink my tea and not wake the kids up for school. Sigh, oh well, you can't always get what you want.

 

[edgecrusher]

I have no real idea what the "etiquette" is for this sort of thing and hope I don't mess it up.

 

[ladyforsaken]

My feet are dying.

I can't stop thinking about her.

I can't stop thinking about him.

I can't stop feeling like this is all just a dream.

I'm so sorry..

*hugs* I think I know what this is about. I'm sorry that happened.

*hugs* :\

I've got a pretty long list here of jobs and internships to apply for. There's got to be ONE here, among them all, that will give me a try.

Good luck to you. My first week on my new job is almost over. Just one more day to go.

Potential? Lol Well, at least I got a smile today. For what? Drowning myself in a bottle? Burying myself in the snow? Bashing my head against a wall? I don't. I don't really have any skills.
I'm brave online. No one knows me. Talking face to face I'd probably hide in the corner. I was raised to be seen and not heard, and I tend to stick with that. I don't trust people and I have nothing in common with people my age (aside from drinking). In reality, I'm the awkward person standing in the corner by themselves.
And yes, I'm an idiot. I know when you're trying to be nice you're not supposed to agree, and yes I can spell, but I should have clued into things a long time ago. I spent too much time being scared and angry and not thinking.
No one said I was whining but me. It's what I feel like. Someone somewhere always has it worse. I appreciate all the gestures, but again, just because you're a decent person doesn't change what I'm worth. I know the whole "permanent solution" - sounds so cliche. I don't believe I'll change my mind. I tried, when I went to rehab, to like myself. I tried to say good things and they felt like lies in my mouth.
I would like to be different, don't get me wrong. I would like to be happy and carefree and maybe have someone say I love you (funny, I don't ever recall having someone tell me that. Not even my mother. Though I suppose maybe she could have when I was an infant) before I die, but that doesn't seem likely. I guess sometimes it just isn't meant to be.

It's never too late to turn your life around....if that's what you want. Everyone has worth, EVERY single person on this planet. Every person also has some kind of skill. It's up to you to find it and utilize it.
You've stated that you have problems and that's really the first step. Now you just have to take the next step and figure out how to correct the problems and issues.
It doesn't matter what other people believe, it matters what YOU believe. It's helpful to have people there to support you and you can have that, whether it's family or friends or complete strangers on the internet. Doesn't matter where the support comes from and it looks as though you have it here, even if you can't find it elsewhere. Now, you can say I don't know you and that's true, I don't. But, I'm still here talking to you, because sometimes that's all it takes is for one person to reach out, even if they don't know you.

As for not having anything in common with people your age, why do you have to limit yourself to people that are the same age as you. I have friends that are 10-15 years younger than me and friends that are 15-20 years older than me. Find people you can relate to, age doesn't matter. Learn something new, find something you enjoy and don't let anything stop you from being happy and healthy. You CAN get there, you just have to want to.

I think Callie pretty much summed it up well.

^What Callie said.

It may seem hard and giving up seems so tempting, but don't. Just keep going, no matter how useless it feels. You never know what might happen or come about that might just change your life around.

I am so depressed that I can't even breathe… some days it seems like there is no future for me whatsoever

I hope you'll feel better soon. :\ *hugs*

Apparently, I'm invisible... oh well, I'm choosing to be happy regardless of this.

No way, you could never be invisible. Not to me at least.

 

[TheSkaFish]

Good luck to you. My first week on my new job is almost over. Just one more day to go.

Thanks. I just would hope that I can find just one internship out there that leads to a real job and gives me a real reference and experience that I could actually use to get myself somewhere, that isn't hung up on my lack of references or a work history. I don't really have any of either.

But I truly do feel I'm competent enough for most things which don't take a specialist background. I just need someone to give me a real opportunity to show that I can do it.

 

[Arachne]

I definitely made a huge mistake trusting

 

[Rainbows]

It's not everyday that I get the opportunity to write an essay about feminism in my Literature major..

Good thing I am changing to Criminology in January, don't think I can stand this bullocks any longer.

 

[Peaco]

So boring.

 

[JHK]

Potential? Lol Well, at least I got a smile today. For what? Drowning myself in a bottle? Burying myself in the snow? Bashing my head against a wall? I don't. I don't really have any skills.
I'm brave online. No one knows me. Talking face to face I'd probably hide in the corner. I was raised to be seen and not heard, and I tend to stick with that. I don't trust people and I have nothing in common with people my age (aside from drinking). In reality, I'm the awkward person standing in the corner by themselves.
And yes, I'm an idiot. I know when you're trying to be nice you're not supposed to agree, and yes I can spell, but I should have clued into things a long time ago. I spent too much time being scared and angry and not thinking.
No one said I was whining but me. It's what I feel like. Someone somewhere always has it worse. I appreciate all the gestures, but again, just because you're a decent person doesn't change what I'm worth. I know the whole "permanent solution" - sounds so cliche. I don't believe I'll change my mind. I tried, when I went to rehab, to like myself. I tried to say good things and they felt like lies in my mouth.
I would like to be different, don't get me wrong. I would like to be happy and carefree and maybe have someone say I love you (funny, I don't ever recall having someone tell me that. Not even my mother. Though I suppose maybe she could have when I was an infant) before I die, but that doesn't seem likely. I guess sometimes it just isn't meant to be.

It's never too late to turn your life around....if that's what you want. Everyone has worth, EVERY single person on this planet. Every person also has some kind of skill. It's up to you to find it and utilize it.
You've stated that you have problems and that's really the first step. Now you just have to take the next step and figure out how to correct the problems and issues.
It doesn't matter what other people believe, it matters what YOU believe. It's helpful to have people there to support you and you can have that, whether it's family or friends or complete strangers on the internet. Doesn't matter where the support comes from and it looks as though you have it here, even if you can't find it elsewhere. Now, you can say I don't know you and that's true, I don't. But, I'm still here talking to you, because sometimes that's all it takes is for one person to reach out, even if they don't know you.

As for not having anything in common with people your age, why do you have to limit yourself to people that are the same age as you. I have friends that are 10-15 years younger than me and friends that are 15-20 years older than me. Find people you can relate to, age doesn't matter. Learn something new, find something you enjoy and don't let anything stop you from being happy and healthy. You CAN get there, you just have to want to.

I don't believe in anything.
You guys truly think that the damage is never too far gone?

 

[Mr Seal The Albatros]

Potential? Lol Well, at least I got a smile today. For what? Drowning myself in a bottle? Burying myself in the snow? Bashing my head against a wall? I don't. I don't really have any skills.
I'm brave online. No one knows me. Talking face to face I'd probably hide in the corner. I was raised to be seen and not heard, and I tend to stick with that. I don't trust people and I have nothing in common with people my age (aside from drinking). In reality, I'm the awkward person standing in the corner by themselves.
And yes, I'm an idiot. I know when you're trying to be nice you're not supposed to agree, and yes I can spell, but I should have clued into things a long time ago. I spent too much time being scared and angry and not thinking.
No one said I was whining but me. It's what I feel like. Someone somewhere always has it worse. I appreciate all the gestures, but again, just because you're a decent person doesn't change what I'm worth. I know the whole "permanent solution" - sounds so cliche. I don't believe I'll change my mind. I tried, when I went to rehab, to like myself. I tried to say good things and they felt like lies in my mouth.
I would like to be different, don't get me wrong. I would like to be happy and carefree and maybe have someone say I love you (funny, I don't ever recall having someone tell me that. Not even my mother. Though I suppose maybe she could have when I was an infant) before I die, but that doesn't seem likely. I guess sometimes it just isn't meant to be.

It's never too late to turn your life around....if that's what you want. Everyone has worth, EVERY single person on this planet. Every person also has some kind of skill. It's up to you to find it and utilize it.
You've stated that you have problems and that's really the first step. Now you just have to take the next step and figure out how to correct the problems and issues.
It doesn't matter what other people believe, it matters what YOU believe. It's helpful to have people there to support you and you can have that, whether it's family or friends or complete strangers on the internet. Doesn't matter where the support comes from and it looks as though you have it here, even if you can't find it elsewhere. Now, you can say I don't know you and that's true, I don't. But, I'm still here talking to you, because sometimes that's all it takes is for one person to reach out, even if they don't know you.

As for not having anything in common with people your age, why do you have to limit yourself to people that are the same age as you. I have friends that are 10-15 years younger than me and friends that are 15-20 years older than me. Find people you can relate to, age doesn't matter. Learn something new, find something you enjoy and don't let anything stop you from being happy and healthy. You CAN get there, you just have to want to.

I don't believe in anything.
You guys truly think that the damage is never too far gone?

Yes. No matter the damage, there is always a possibility to turn that around and improve things.

 

[Triple Bogey]

the deputy manager at work today was telling all these women what his girlfriend sounds like when he's shagging her. Of course they all thought it was funny.
Disgusting if you ask me.

 

[SophiaGrace]

I'm hungry.

 

[Rainbows]

I gained 10 followers on tumblr in one day - crazy.

--

I'm gonna get attached to you and I don't like it.

 

[TheRealCallie]

Potential? Lol Well, at least I got a smile today. For what? Drowning myself in a bottle? Burying myself in the snow? Bashing my head against a wall? I don't. I don't really have any skills.
I'm brave online. No one knows me. Talking face to face I'd probably hide in the corner. I was raised to be seen and not heard, and I tend to stick with that. I don't trust people and I have nothing in common with people my age (aside from drinking). In reality, I'm the awkward person standing in the corner by themselves.
And yes, I'm an idiot. I know when you're trying to be nice you're not supposed to agree, and yes I can spell, but I should have clued into things a long time ago. I spent too much time being scared and angry and not thinking.
No one said I was whining but me. It's what I feel like. Someone somewhere always has it worse. I appreciate all the gestures, but again, just because you're a decent person doesn't change what I'm worth. I know the whole "permanent solution" - sounds so cliche. I don't believe I'll change my mind. I tried, when I went to rehab, to like myself. I tried to say good things and they felt like lies in my mouth.
I would like to be different, don't get me wrong. I would like to be happy and carefree and maybe have someone say I love you (funny, I don't ever recall having someone tell me that. Not even my mother. Though I suppose maybe she could have when I was an infant) before I die, but that doesn't seem likely. I guess sometimes it just isn't meant to be.

It's never too late to turn your life around....if that's what you want. Everyone has worth, EVERY single person on this planet. Every person also has some kind of skill. It's up to you to find it and utilize it.
You've stated that you have problems and that's really the first step. Now you just have to take the next step and figure out how to correct the problems and issues.
It doesn't matter what other people believe, it matters what YOU believe. It's helpful to have people there to support you and you can have that, whether it's family or friends or complete strangers on the internet. Doesn't matter where the support comes from and it looks as though you have it here, even if you can't find it elsewhere. Now, you can say I don't know you and that's true, I don't. But, I'm still here talking to you, because sometimes that's all it takes is for one person to reach out, even if they don't know you.

As for not having anything in common with people your age, why do you have to limit yourself to people that are the same age as you. I have friends that are 10-15 years younger than me and friends that are 15-20 years older than me. Find people you can relate to, age doesn't matter. Learn something new, find something you enjoy and don't let anything stop you from being happy and healthy. You CAN get there, you just have to want to.

I don't believe in anything.
You guys truly think that the damage is never too far gone?

Well, I meant what you believe about yourself, but there was a time when I didn't really believe in anything either, now I do. It's hard work, I won't lie about that, but you CAN do it. You just have to get yourself to the point where you believe in yourself. Fake the confidence, at first, if you need to. You just have to take it one day at a time. You can't change the past, so personally, there's no point in dwelling on what happened then. The past may have made you the person you are today, but it doesn't have to define you, unless you allow it.