I need to vent myself somewhere, so I'll do it here :/
I just realised what I'm doing and why, and that I am pushing my life backwards this year, and I'm so stupid (maybe I'm not but I do a lot of stupid things lately, more than ever) and childish and I need to let go my stupid fears and ego and just be, it's all ˝game˝, why am I so afraid of everything if nothing is permanent and maybe tomorrow I won't even be here... If I know that why am I still so stupid?
thank you forum for giving me a space(or place?) for this.