I hate this. I just want to curl up in a hole and die.
I can't wait until it's over, but I know it will never end.
Sure, schools out at the end of the month.
But then it's summer homework, studying french, and volunteering in the city (still have no idea how I'm going to get there every day). And then Senior year, with IB HL Biology 2nd year and all it's wonders. Not to mention IB Calculus AB, or Arthurian Legend. Gov./Econ. will likely bore me to tears. And it'll all be so much work. Then college, if I get in to any. Then med school, again if I can get in to any. And internship and fellowship and residency and long long long days that actually last for 3 or 4 days straight in the e.r. with a pager telling me constantly to go help someone that's puking up a lung or hemorhaging from the face. It's all too much. Too much work.
But if someone as worthless as me can lessen the suffering of the infirm, even if that future is years away, I've got to try.
Or I could just join the peace corps. That could be more fun.